Rock Middle?

There's a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. Something happened to me early last week. I won't say what, but maybe at a later time. I'm extremely sensitive so if something happens to me it's ten times as worse when it happens to someone else. It was enough where I've lost my appetite for the past few days. I felt humiliated and rejected, even though it's debatable as to if I should feel that way. So... I've committed myself to losing weight. Now this might be hard since I have about 40 to last me until next Friday. I have 20 to pay for the shrink this week and next. Then I'll have to pay for gas which will be about 50 dollars give or take a few dollars. THEN I have to buy groceries. I'm going to have to mooch off of my brother for a little bit. I might be saved. My rebate of $100 for my phone, was estimated to be shipped on the 22nd of this month. I just hope that they shipped it early rather than late. I plan on cooking damn near everything so that should cut down on expenses. I also plan on going to the gym 6 times this week as well. I went yesterday, surprisingly I didn't keel over. I just want to lose as much weight as quickly as possible.

Now my other goal is to socialize and make friends. I will start at work first. I've joined that website meetup.com. I've joined a few groups on there. I plan on actually participating in some of the get togethers that are coming up. I want to live. I've held back for so long! I want to be able to invite people over or go clothes shopping with a girlfriend or have a group of friends get together at a restaurant. I want to be a social butterfly.

So here's to me!

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